Seems that every few years, the life teaches me a lesson which is contrary to my fundamental belief system. One of the "pillars" of who I am is a belief that people are fundamentally good. That the next person I meet is presumed good and decent before I learn otherwise. Through the years that approach has resulted in some spectacular disappointments. And so today, once again, I am faced with true personal and professional betrayal by people I have known for many years. As in prior cases, the root cause is the same - money.
Margie Gunderson (Fargo): "And for what? For a little bit of money. There's more to life than a little
money, you know. Don'tcha know that? And here ya are, and it's a beautiful day.
Well. I just don't understand it. "
It always catches me by surprise. I can never imagine being able to do that to someone. And I would rather keep it that way. For one lesson that I did learn is that we only suspect others in things we are capable of doing ourselves.
So, once again, I learn that majority of people are small, greedy, full of complexes and excuses. And that since they know better, they hide, pretend, and lie. But once the question comes to money or power they can't help themselves and they become themselves.
I am far from perfect, but I face the people I disagree with, I tell them what I think of them, and I confront them in the open. I count some truly great scumbags as my enemies and I am proud of it.
Doctor Who: "You can always judge a man by the quality of his enemies."
What I never understood is how do THEY look at themselves in the mirror every morning? What web of lies must they construct around their lives to justify their deeds !!! In the end, I have to believe that they end up carrying the burden of who they are and what they have done. They have to know.
Stansfield (Leon the Professional): "What filthy piece of shit did
I do now? "
I will not learn from this lesson either. I am peculiarly handicapped in this area. For if I did learn from this lesson, it would mean that the next person I meet would be assumed to be a liar, lacking principles and morals. Capable of doing anything for the right price. And I would miss knowing a potentially great friend or partner. And then I would become just like the majority I don't want to be.